my friends

• ing.arkadaslarim anlamina gelen silence 4 sarkisi..
  
  i was so lost in my pain
  fear was melting my brain
  i was counting the days to insanity
  i was afraid to move myself
  
  afraid to hurt myself
  more than i had until that day
  everything i believed in
  everything i fought for
  was now underneath my feet
  and my heartbeat
  was so gone
  couldn't be felt by anyone
  so alone it gave me the creeps
  my drugs got me in bed
  went up to my head
  and i really don't wanna depend
  
  so i'll stick to
  my friends and my friends and my car and my friends
  my friends and my cards and my car and my friends
  martini 'till the end play pool again
  
  never thought to end like this
  no one told me it would be like this
  i'm amazed with myself
  and my brain and my pain, and my pain and my brain
  are delivering to my health
  my self-confidence was broken while my trust was taken
  and it left me with an empty life
  and this knife
  rests on the middle of my bed
  i think in all the things she said
  close my eyes and sleep
  all these drugs in my head
  it seems i'm already dead
  and i really don't wanna depend
  
  so i'll stick to
  my friends and my friends and my car and my friends
  my friends and my cards and my car and my friends
  martini 'till the end play pool again
  
  can't smoke anymore
  can't drink anymore
  still i do it, i do it again
  lost everything i had
  far from mom, far from dad
  i thank god for my good, good friends
  but where's this god that i mention?
  where is he right now?
  as i die as slowly as i can?
  all my plans went down the hole
  my life has no goal
  and i wonder if is this worth it?
  but my friends took my hand
  helped to lift myself again
  and that's what i really love
  
  so i'll stick to
  my friends and my friends and my car and my friends
  my friends and my cards and my car and my friends
  martini 'till the end play pool again