you're on your own kid

• benim için artık geride kalan üniversite yıllarımın özeti olan şarkı. o kadar benzer şeyler yaşadım ve atlattım ki, bu benim acılarımın sıradanlığı mı yoksa pek çoğumuzun yaşayabildiği ortak hayal kırıklarının bir toplamı mı emin olamadım. böyle temposu sakin ve hafif hareketli bir şarkının bu kadar acıtabileceğini hiç düşünmezdim.
  
  "summer went away still, the yearning stays
  ı play it cool with the best of them
  ı wait patiently he's gonna notice me
  ıt's okay, we're the best of friends
  anyway
  ı hear it in your voice
  you're smoking with your boys
  ı touch my phone as if it's your face
  ı didn't choose this town, ı dream of getting out
  there's just one who could make me stay
  all my days
  from sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
  ı waited ages to see you there
  ı search the party of better bodies
  just to learn that you never cared
  you're on your own, kid
  you always have been
  ı see the great escape
  so long, daisy may
  ı picked the petals, he loves me not
  something different bloomed
  writing in my room
  ı play my songs in the parking lot
  ı'll run away
  from sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
  ı called a taxi to take me there
  ı search the party of better bodies
  just to learn that my dreams aren't rare
  you're on your own, kid
  you always have been
  from sprinkler splashes to fireplace ashes
  ı gave my blood, sweat, and tears for this
  ı hosted parties and starved my body
  like ı'd be saved by a perfect kiss
  the jokes weren't funny, ı took the money
  my friends from home don't know what to say
  ı looked around in a blood-soaked gown
  and ı saw something they can't take away
  `cause there were pages turned with the bridges burned`
  everything you lose is a step you take
  so make the friendship bracelets
  take the moment and taste it
  you've got no reason to be afraid
  you're on your own, kid
  yeah, you can face this
  you're on your own, kid
  you always have been
  
  edit: iyisiyle kötüsüyle hepsi birer deneyimdi ve geriye baktığımda zamanında üzüldüğüm, pişman olduğum şeyler beni şu an olduğum insan yaptı. şarkıda da dediği gibi "everything you lose is a step you take." şimdi olduğum yerden mutlu olmak ise gerçekten çok kıymetli.