exile

• dreadful shadows parcasi.
  
  contradiction in my thoughts is the barrier of my life
  i cannot jump that nigh to overcome
  too many hidden ways - their destination is the same
  which way is wrong and which is right
  
  sometimes i wish i had a choice
  to end or to begin
  sometimes i wish i could live on my own
  
  but nothing's breaking through the walls inside
  all the dreams remain behind
  all the voices fade away
  i'm falling into nothingness of life
  i don't care about the time
  i don't need to understand
  
  there's no confusion in my mind but the clarity is gone
  i hope you'll never ask about tomorrow
  my abandoned ship is carried by the current
  i cannot fight against it and i cannot force it
  
  sometimes i wish i had a choice
  to end or to begin
  sometimes i wish i could live on my own
  
  but nothing's breaking through the walls inside
  all the dreams remain behind
  all the voices fade away
  i'm falling into nothingness of life
  i don't care about the time
  i don't need to understand