beneath the underdog

• charles mingus'un, yaşamını en ince detayına kadar yazdığı otobiyografisinin adı.
• charles mingus'un kadınlarla olan ilişkilerini, yatak serüvenlerini, pezevenkliğini (evet, öyle bir durum da var), ne bileyim işte, sikişsokuş üzerine ne yaşadıysa onları, ama hep onları anlattığı yaşamöyküsel kitabı (penguin, 1980)...
  
  tamam, onları da yaz babacım, niye yazmayasın. ne var ki müzik anılarına da en az (en az!) o ölçüde yer vermen gerekirdi. sen charles bukowski değilsin ki, charles mingus'sun! evet, charlie parker'la, art tatum'la, fats navarro'yla ilgili nefis şeyler anlatmışın ama hiç kesmedi onlar bizi. doğrusu hevesimizi kursağımızda bıraktın.
  
  bak, charlie de demedim, charles dedim.
  
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  sonradan gelen okuma önerileri :
  
  . "mingus: a critical biography" - brian priestly.
  . "mingus speaks" - john f. goodman.
• nellie mckay‘ın home sweet mobile home‘undan bir şarkı.
  
  come on, come on, let's try and make it
  you tell yourself, this time for sure
  but i would rather sit and crave it
  i’m not wanted anymore
  
  i had a kind of friend in you
  it wasn't pleasant all the time
  but though my heart is jaded
  i think winnin' is overrated
  
  lookin' through frosted windows
  i envy the soft contented sighs
  but i don't get people
  i don't get the things they think are reasonable
  
  so you'll find me
  here right beneath the underdog
  when life's impossible
  hold tight beneath the underdog
  that's where i'm comfortable
  
  and i know i'm a fool, perhaps
  i rationalize what i can’t have
  but no, here right beneath the underdog
  that's where i’d rather be
  maybe someday i will see
  a kind of personality
  who makes the world better
  
  and when that happens i may find
  i miss the nervous daily grind
  it's hard to stand this peace of mind
  it's truly finer on the outside
  ooh, the outside
  
  i’ve conquered mountains, so to speak
  and looked down from a higher peak
  but it seems so creepy
  when it can leave you feelin' sleazy
  
  so settin' off from this hill camp
  i'd rather be her little tramp
  my own companion
  or maybe with one whose tail is waggin'
  
  so you'll find us
  here right beneath the underdog
  when life's impossible
  hold tight beneath the underdog
  that's where i'm comfortable
  and i know i'm a fool, perhaps
  and rationalize what i can't have
  but no, here right beneath the underdog
  that's where i'd rather be
  
  i'd rather be
  i’d rather be
• (bkz: beneath the valley of the underdog)
• benim gibi "fucked in the head" bir kadın sayesinde keşfettiğim depresif bir baxter dury şarkısı. korkma ve underdog'un altında görüşmek üzere...
  
  she's just a dog without a lead
  she's just a lonely lady now
  she feels the need to try to please other people all of the time
  
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  
  we're all the same, we're both to blame
  we're all fucked in the head
  we're all the same, we're both to blame
  we're all fucked in the head
  
  let your eyes gently weep upon my sleeve
  let your eyes gently weep upon my sleeve
  let your eyes gently weep upon my sleeve
  let your eyes gently weep upon my sleeve
  
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
  ı'm just below where no one goes
  beneath the underdog
• beneath the underdog
  
  (bkz: underdog)
  
  and i know i'm a fool, perhaps
  i rationalize what i can’t have
  but no, here right beneath the underdog
  that's where i’d rather be:):)