through her eyes

• she never really had a chance
  on that fateful moonlit night
  sacrificed without a fight
  a victim of her circumstance
  
  now that i've become aware
  and i've exposed this tragedy
  a sadness grows inside of me
  it all seems so unfair
  
  i'm learning all about my life
  by looking through her eyes
  
  just beyond the churchyard gates
  where the grass is overgrown
  i saw the writing on her stone
  i felt like i would suffocate
  
  in loving memory of our child
  so innocent, eyes open wide
  i felt so empty as i cried
  like part of me had died
  
  i'm learning all about my life
  by looking through her eyes
  
  and as her image
  wandered through my head
  i wept just like a baby
  as i lay awake in bed
  
  and i know what it's like
  to lose someone you love
  and this felt just the same
  
  she wasn't given any choice
  desperation stole her voice
  i've been given so much more in life
  i've got a son, i've got a wife
  
  i had to suffer one last time
  to grieve for her and say goodbye
  relive the anguish of my past
  to find out who i was at last
  
  the door has opened wide
  i'm turning with the tide
  looking through her eyes