inside

• ayni zamanda bir pain of salvation sarkisi.
  
  'what is a war criminal? was not war itself a crime against god and
  humanity, and, therefore, were not all those who sanctioned, engineered,
  and conducted wars, war criminals? war criminals are not confined to the
  axis powers alone.'
  
  i was told the pain and hunger was not my fault
  how could they be so wrong?
  and man, of all five billion people you're only one
  believed them for far too long!
  clean hands
  my land is my home
  
  i'm inside the big machine and it's eating me!
  and i am just a wheel in motion, too blind to see
  the way we are heading now
  
  i'm hollow
  i swallow, but....
  
  inside i'm strong
  inside i'm free
  inside i'm young
  inside i'm still me
  
  [since 1990 there have been 93 wars in 70 states all around the world, with 5.5 million people dead. 75% of these people were civilians, 1 million of them were children...]
  
  (guns don't kill - i don't kill. do i?)
  
  drink with me, laugh with me, friends for tonight
  stay with me, sleep with me, happy tonight
  i only feel lonely outside this bar
  look at me when i speak! who do you think you are?
  
  just look at me now! inside i'm lost...
  
  now i'm vain, numb this pain - why is it burning?
  clean as rain, not a stain - so why am i yearning?
  
  i can't sleep - i twist and turn
  in too deep - i sweat, i burn
  i'm afraid that i'll awake, dressed up in a big mistake
  then i'd break!
  
  what if i just closed my eyes?
  (i'm not clean...)
  what if i shut out the lies?
  (...blood unseen...)
  and what if i could hear my heart...
  (...all over my hands!)
  ...accusing me for taking part
  of the machine