spellbound

• when you are away, my soul hungers wildly.
  when you are close, i long for you just as much -
  in despair i see,
  numb, secluded,
  how empty and futile
  is the minute which goes by.
  
  your essence of proud and regal perfumes fine
  i secretly wanted to drink, a sacred wine -
  but i stand heavy as death
  as in dreams,
  with a thirst like tantalos
  in clear streams.
  
  in times of solitude my tongue has burned
  to tell you of the beautiful thing i have dreamt and felt
  but when i am near you
  my thoughts slumber,
  my door is closed,
  and my heart is numb.