animals

• the adventures of ghosthorse and stillborndan bir iyi ki doğdum şarkısı.
  
  now that i'm alone i feel the lonely brokenness
  of all the wicked avenues i've ever sold my love on
  all these moments of meekness and trembling subsided
  i'm the outright abandon of this orphan child
  home is on the highway living on soft bread and solace
  i guess i'm waiting for nightfall or a solar eclipse
  and to wake up half empty
  only to be filled again with mourning
  he's my evil shadow dove
  my black palamito
  can't break him like a diamond skull
  i can't seem to do so
  can't just rob him out like the
  mob used to do so
  like memories of porno and tearstains
  and tobacco o it's a mini disastro
  bigger than the ice age don't know if baby dinosaurs
  maybe could live through it, like indians and butterflies
  what's crushed is my spirit, oh i fear it is too fragile
  like fall leaves burn like paper
  
  i always knew i would spend a lot of time alone
  no one would understand me
  maybe i should go and live amongst the animals
  spend all my time amongst the animals
  and on the tracks i would go they lead to the sea
  to be amongst the animals
  
  oh i'm just afall leaf something simple and shy lie that
  that's how my heart lies down beside the sidewalk
  like an empty restaurant filled with perfume and balloons
  i sit and entertain the bisarro ghosts of my soul
  his name still lingers maybe lactates on my tongue
  perhaps i'm just teething for a foreign fallen destiny
  miserable but mine, i look like his mother
  or sophia loren in an old fashioned movie
  slow motion i cling to my child desperate for love
  one day soon my brother died, made me remember all the
  subordinate feelings i cast aside
  maybe i had lied when i said i was ok
  just getting along like a little song that stops to sing and say
  "wild willow, windy winter won't you blow through me
  my whole eternity"