my dark reflections of life and death

• green carnation'in 2000 cikisli journey to the end of the night albumunun 17:50'lik ucuncu track'i. sanki biraz light of day, day of darkness'i animsatiyor inceden. sozlerini de yazalim da her sey tamam olsun.
  
  pain is self-inflicted, cause is not
  i long for my time, long before its due
  tired of resting in despair
  judge me for who i am
  relieve me for what i am
  remember me for what i was
  forgive me for what i became
  where shadows speak of memories
  i stand alone in my dark and lonely world
  surrounded by this cold embrace of temptation
  white bewinged angel of light
  tempts me to change my life
  come, come to me, she whispers
  longing eyes, she stares through my soul and mind
  wants me to become one of the light
  ah, serpent of lust and lie, where will my path go?
  should i be tempted by the light or should i remain in darkness
  all alone, all alone.....
  why all this sorrow, why all this confusion?
  i was one of thee, why am i left behind?
  hate - fills my mind
  sorrow - breeds my life
  but of those i choose, no one is sent out from you
  my way will be long, my road will be unknown
  path to eternity, eternity lasts forever
  light of day, day of darkness
  i will never be trustfull again....
  i am not for you, i am not for those
  not for light, not for life
  farewell to sunlit world
  on the dark side we will meet
  we will meet again after life...
  time passes slowly
  i fade away, life drained
  what used to be, what could have been now
  i feel no pleasure, only pain
  i feed upon my fear of life
  trapped in agony and despair
  anguish of the night
  i will meet you again
  on the other side...
• bu hoş şarkı henüz hızlanmadan davulcu hafif hafif vurur sağa, sola, zillere, 2.45 te ise tek yerine çift vurur hi-hat'e, sıçmış mıdır bilerek mi yapmıştır bir türlü emin olunamamıştır yıllar boyunca. (eldeki mp3'te bir sorun olmadığını varsayarak) dikkatli dinleyince sıçmış gibi geliyor kulağa, allahın salağı...
• bu şarkıda kjetil nordhus'un performansı bana jonathan davis'i andırdı.