internal landscapes

• anathema'nın weather systems albümünün kapanış şarkısı.
  
  [spoken:]
  
  and i felt myself going. i was in a great deal of pain. it was a very frightening experience i began to slip. i just started to feel myself going, and i remember trying to hold on "i'll be ok, i'll be ok" and it got to a point where i just couldn't.
  and everything began to just become very quiet and i can remember with every ounce of strength i had, i wanted to say goodbye to my wife. it was important to me.
  and i did, i remember just turning my head and looking at her and saying: "i'm gonna die" "goodbye joan", and i did…
  it was then that i experienced... experienced what we call a near death experience, for me it was nothing near about it, it was there.
  it was a total immersion in light, brightness, warmth, peace, security.
  i did not have an out-of-body-experience, i did not see my body or any one about me… i just immediately went into this beautiful bright light.
  it's difficult to describe, as a matter of fact is impossible to describe, verbally it cannot be expressed, it’s something which becomes you and you become it.
  i could say that i was peace, i was love, i was the brightness, it was part of me.
  
  goodbye my friend, life will never end.
  and i feel like you…
  and i breath on truth.
  
  love is the life breath of all i see.
  love is true life inside of me.
  and i know you somehow as i hold you in my heart, in my heart.
  
  there’s a fire in the sky, and i know it’s you…
  there's a light, it's all around, and i know it's you, i know it's you
  and i dream like you
  ‘cause i believe in truth.
  
  for i was always there…
  i will always be there...
  
  [spoken:]
  
  it's just so beautiful.
  it was eternity, it's like i was always there, and i will always be there, that my existence on earth was very brief, instant...
  i could say that i was peace, i was love, i was the brightness, it was part of me.
• konser versiyonunu dinlemenizi şiddetle tavsiye ederim, olaydır.
• anathema'nın dinlerken alıp götüren, dalmaları tetikleyen şarkısıdır. baştaki konuşmasından sondaki epik yükselişte muazzamlığı korumuslardir.
  
  (bkz: i always be there)
  
  bu ne sestir yigidim.
• amerikalı emekli öğretmen joseph geraci'nin sesiyle başlayan anathema parçası.
  
  geraci'nin 1977 yılında, ameliyat sonrası komplikasyonları sonucu 4-5 dakika boyunca kalbinin durmasıyla yaşadığı^* ölüme yakın deneyimini^* insanın içine işleyen yoğunluktaki kelime seçimleriyle paylaşıyor olması tüyleri diken diken ediyor.
  
  adamın anlattıklarının mı, ses tonunun mu, seçtiği kelimelerin mi yoksa şarkının mı beni daha çok etkilediğini bilmiyorum. şarkının başından itibaren astronot kıyafetimi giymiş buluyorum kendimi, sanki galaksiden galaksiye geçiş yapıyorum. melankolik bir mutluluk var üzerimde. hafif hüzünle bir araya gelen kalpten bir sevgiyle bakıyorum etrafıma. ne kadar da küçüğüz insanlık olarak, ne kadar savunmasızız. bununla birlikte hırslarımızla, evrenin sahibi bizmişçesine yiyip yiyip doyamadığımız, kazık çaktığımızı sandığımız bu dünyaya ne kadar uzak, ne kadar yabancıyız, onu anlıyorum. evet, anlatım ve şarkı sayesinde bütün bunlar daha bir yakın, daha bir tanıdık geliyor.
  
  "verbally it cannot be expressed, it's something which becomes you and you become it... i could say that i was peace, i was love, i was the brightness and it was part of me."