why do i lie

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  i would love to be better
  i would love to be free
  i would love to be perfect
  when you look at me
  but instead i'm still crying
  yes instead i'm still lying
  sad to say i'm still trying
  not to be me
  when i see all the weakness
  that i turned into sickness
  i still think i can slide
  just fine on the ice
  it's not easy to be honest
  sometimes i'm just astonished
  how hard it can be to be true
  
  why do i lie?
  is it just to get by
  if i give up my lines
  will i die?
  if fortunes are favored
  then i am in labor
  and i'm trying so hard
  to leave lying behind
  
  i don't want to be hazy
  i don't think that i'm crazy
  but i've had some moments
  where i am not sure
  and if you can forgive me
  for just being human
  then i will try harder
  to keep my words pure
  
  i could be on the border
  it could be a disorder
  honestly i think
  that i can come clean
  and all of my stories might even be boring
  if i can tell you
  what they all mean