my gift to you

• jonathan davis'in babasina degil, o donemdeki sevgilisine yazdigi sarki. sevgilisi bundan sarki istemis o da aynen $oyle yazmis:
  
  laying by my precious
  
  not long ago
  hiding behind the shadows
  of your broken soul
  why is it always you want something you can never have?
  why did you you try to tell me?
  how could you be this way
  
  your throat, i take
  grasp
  can you feel the pain?
  then your eyes roll back
  can you feel the pain?
  love racing through my veins
  can't you feel the pain?
  your heart stops beating
  can't you feel the pain
  black orgasms
  can't you feel the pain
  i kiss your lifeless skin
  can't you feel the pain
  
  there you are my precious
  
  with your broken soul
  rubbing my crotch, elated
  taking control
  why is it always
  you fuck up something you have always had
  why'd you try to tell me
  how could you be so cold?
  
  your throat, i take
  grasp
  can you feel the pain?
  then your eyes roll back
  can you feel the pain?
  love racing through my veins
  can't you feel the pain?
  your heart stops beating
  can't you feel the pain
  black orgasms
  can't you feel the pain
  i kiss your lifeless skin
  can't you feel the pain
  
  here i am, just a man
  
  feeling the pain, gives me life
  relieving us is my plan
  i'd do anything to see through your eyes
  just to see through your lies
  
  i hate you, can you feel the pain?
  
  can't you feel the pain?
  
  i hate you, can you feel the pain?
  
  your throat, i take
  grasp
  can you feel the pain?
  then your eyes roll back
  can you feel the pain?
  love racing through my veins
  can't you feel the pain?
  your heart stops beating
  can't you feel the pain
  black orgasms
  can't you feel the pain
  i kiss your lifeless skin
  can't you feel the pain
• jon bu şarkıyı 6 yıllık sevgilsi 6 aylık karısı olan renee davis e yazmıştır. renee yengemiz evi terk ederkene bir not bırakmış notta "seni öldürmek isteğim 25 yol" yazıyorumuş. renee her zman kendisi adına bir şarkı yapmasını istemiş jondan onda yazmış... iyi olmuş
• şarkının ilerleyen dakikarlarında daha ayrı bir şarkı sölenir. arada biraz boşluk biraz konuşmadan sonra ;
  
  dun nun nun
  dun nun nun
  dun dun dun
  odelay!
  my momma talk to me
  try to tell me how to live
  but i don’t listen to her
  ’cuz my head is like a sift
  my daddy, he disowned me
  ’cuz i wear my sisters clothes
  he caught me in the bathroom
  with my pair of pantyhose
  my basketball coach
  he just kick me off the team
  for wearing high heels sneakers
  and acting like a queen
  gonna turn my back onto a tree, to a tree
  gonna die my back into a tree
  gonna die his back into a tree
  the world is coming to an end and i don’t give a damn
  as long as i have my bitch
  oh i’m a fuck you
  it don’t bother me, if people think i’m funny
  ’cuz i’m a big rock star, and i make lots of money
  money, money, money..
  money, ka ching
  ha, ha, ha
  lots of money
  i’m so bloody rich
  lots of money
  lots of muthafuckin money
  i own shopping centres, parking lots, and stars, and all that shit
  ha, ha, ha
  i own you, ha, you too, you three
  for me, he he, oh oh
  let’s bring it back one more time jonathan
  jonathan on them drums, getting ever slower
  more groovin, slow that shit down
  crazy slow, come on, death, right here, slow, ah
  don’t give a fuck, break it out
  you even know, boy george is on heroin
  we don’t give a fuck
  rick james is in the crack house
  i’m fuckin paying, that’s all that matters
  ha, ha, ha
  the bomb is a fuckin in the house
  loco!
• şarkının ilerleyen dakikalarında giren hidden track earache my eye adlı şarkıdır.
• korn 'un en mükemmel şarkılarından biri. korn 'u korn yapan korn 'a dair tüm unsurlar var: jonathan'ın acı ve öfke dolu sözleri, içten vokali, gayda, fieldy'nin duyulabilen slapleri... böylece korn 'un insanı ağlatabilen şarkılarından biri karşımıza çıkıyor.
  
  gerçekten eski korn'u özlememek elde değil.
  
  mükemmel bir remix'i için ise bkz.
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w3osjfkur84
• ergenyus zamanlarımda "i hate you can't you feel the pain?" diye böğürülen kısmı arka arkaya yüzlerce kez dinlemişliğim vardır. ergenlik işte. ama şarkı 20 yıl sonra hâlâ güzel.