i am trying to break your heart

• 2002 tarihli wilco albumu yankee hotel foxtrot'un giriste hemen sagdaki ilk sarki, piyanolu, gitarli, karanlik bir ambiyans..
  ve ayriyeten sam jones'in, grubun albumu yapimi ve yayinlamasi [plak sirketlerinin albumu reddetmesi, yeni sirket bulunmasi vs.] arasinda gecen olaylari anlatan dokumanteri..
• (bkz: red eyed and blue)
• piyanosu,gitari yerli yerinde fakat karanligi az biraz eksik gibi gelmektedir bu sarkinin bana. boyle ilahi bir isimde bir sarkidan beklentilerim belki pek yuksek oldugundandir ki, sarkiyi sever fakat bir turlu kendisine bayilamam. birinin kalbini kirmaya calismak, dunyanin en zor aciklanabilir hissidir ve feci karanliktir benim nezdimde;o piyano hafiften bozuyor benim icin ambiyansi. sozlere baksam derdinin baska oldugunu anlayacak olsam da ben oturup bik bik otmeyi tercih ediyor ve huzurlarinizdan ayriliyorum.
  ama siz sozlere bakmak isterseniz; cekinmeyiniz:
  
  i am an american aquarium drinker
  i assassin down the avenue
  i'm hiding out in the big city blinking
  what was i thinking when i let go of you?
  
  let's forget about the tongue-tied lightning
  let's undress just like cross-eyed strangers
  this is not a joke, so please stop smiling
  what was i thinking when i said it didn't hurt?
  
  i want to glide through those brown eyes dreaming
  take it from the inside, baby hold on tight
  you were so right when you said that i've been drinking
  what was i thinking when we said good night?
  
  i want to hold you in the bible-black predawn
  you're quite a quiet domino, bury me now
  take off your band-aid because i don't believe in touchdowns
  what was i thinking when i said hello?
  
  i'd always thought that if i held you tightly
  you'd always love me like you did back then
  then i fell asleep in the city kept blinking
  what was i thinking when i let you back in?
  
  i am trying to break your heart
  i am trying to break your heart
  but still i'd be lying if i said it wasn't easy
  i am trying to break your heart
  
  disposable dixie-cup drinking
  i assassin down the avenue
  i'm hiding out in the big city blinking
  what was i thinking when i let go of you?
  
  loves you
  i'm the man who loves you
  
  haa bu sonundaki "i'm the man who loves you" numarasi hosuma gitmedi mi; gitti tabi.
  (bkz: i m the man who loves you)
• ilginç bir şarkı, nakaratı yok. "i assasin down" diye bir kalıp uydurulmuş. dinlemeye değer bir şarkı. şuradan dinlenebilir.
• şarkının canlı performansı:
  
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ie1y6qvzcf8
  
  belgeselin jeneriği:
  
  http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjblvqkcwrc