leaving heaven

• acilen lucifer dizisinin beşinci sezon soundtrack listesine dahil edilmesi gereken eminem ve skyler grey düeti.
• eminem'in music to be murdered by albümünden bir şarkı. albümünün en güzellerinden. şarkının sözleri:
  
  [intro: eminem]
  yeah (i knew this day was coming)
  sometimes, you gotta come back down (it's all going to hell now, man)
  stoop to someone's level (yeah)
  
  [verse 1: eminem]
  five dozen flies buzzin' over your head
  call me the grim reaper, sleep is my cousin
  you're dead to me now and i'ma be the last face you see
  'fore you die cussin' (yep)
  my eye a tiger's and i'm a survivor so i will rise up and (what?)
  be triumphant 'cause when i'm looking at my legacy (leg, i see)
  bunch of dogs gonna tryna dry hump it
  like triumph the puppet, so i'm like, "fuck it"
  pile the carnage up 'til it's so high, it's touching the sky
  let 'em all line up and attack
  single filing up in the stack
  call 'em toy soldiers (yeah)
  'cause they just wind up on their backs
  now the sky's nothing but black
  but i am not coming back, i done told ya
  i told the woke me to go to sleep
  but still, they keep on provoking me
  they're hoping to see me completely broken emotionally
  but how in the fuck am i not supposed to be woke
  when these fuckers just keep poking me? now
  
  [chorus: skylar grey]
  i'm leaving heaven
  i'm leaving heaven
  angels won't find me
  where i am going
  
  [verse 2: eminem]
  i've been down, kicked
  like around six thousand times since i was a kid
  as a child, picked on, clowned, been
  countless times i've been outed
  gotta remind myself of it every now and then (yeah)
  so the route i went's self-empowerment
  in a hole, taught myself how to get out of it
  and balance it with talents, wit
  'cause life is like a penny (life is like a penny)
  'cause it's only one percent
  who overcome the shit they've underwent
  i went awol like what my back was up against
  don't tell me 'bout struggle, bitch, i lived it
  i was five or six the first time i got my hind end kicked
  malcolm, isaac, and boogie jumped me and took my tricycle
  and i don't know if i would call that white privilege, yeah
  but i get it, how it feels to be judged by pigment
  besides getting it from both sides of the tracks
  but i swore i'd get them back
  even if it meant selling my soul to get my revenge and (what?)
  thought of a scheme and it got me to thinking
  if i can believe in myself, i could prolly achieve it
  that’s part of the reason i do all my talking with ink
  and as long as i'm breathing, i vow to smother and beat them
  my god, what a heart of a demon, go at 'em and i'ma get even
  like i'm in the garden of eden, i'm 'bout to go off of the deep end
  this evil is calling, i'm already seething and
  
  [chorus: skylar grey]
  i'm leaving heaven
  i'm leaving heaven
  angels won't find me
  where i am going
  
  [verse 3: eminem]
  okay, so while macklemore was keeping his room nice and neat (yeah)
  i was getting my ass beat twice a week (what?)
  looking for a place for the night where i could sleep (yeah)
  flippin' sofa cushions over just tryin' to see
  if i could find some change and scrape up for a bite to eat
  if denaun and me find a couple dimes a piece
  twenty five cents each'd get us a bag of chips
  we'd be glad to get that even we if we had to split
  we'd do backward flips, looking back at it
  i think that would fit with the definition of not having shit
  couple that with the fact my mother was batshit
  pop was a sack of shit, yeah, he died, but i gave half a shit
  yeah, which brings me back to the dear 'ol dad that i zero had
  since a year-old, forty-seven year-old scab
  just to hear them words, ear piercing
  like my earlobe stabbed with a needle for an earring
  should i feel upset? you were dead to me 'fore you died
  me? tear no shed
  should i have made a mural at your funeral?
  had your coffin draped with a hero's flag?
  where the fuck you were at
  when de'angelo done hurt me real bad at the rio grande?
  never met your grandkids, fucking coward
  only guts you had was from your stomach fat
  i couldn't see your ass goin' to heaven
  so i'm asking for a pass to go to hell
  so i can whip your fucking ass
  i hate that i'll never get to say "i hate you" to your face
  no coming back from where i'm going
  sky is dark, my soul is black, hand on the shovel
  dig with the blade up, and then i step on the metal
  vendetta to settle, tell the devil
  
  [chorus: skylar grey & eminem]
  i'm leaving heaven (yeah)
  i'm leaving heaven (you know, i should dig your motherfucking ass up)
  angels won't find me (just to spit in your fucking face)
  where i am going (holding my baby pictures up like you're proud of me)
  i'm leaving heaven (fuck you, bitch)
  i'm leaving heaven (you know what? maybe if i had had you)
  angels won't find me (i wouldn't have went through half the shit i went through, so i blame you)
  where i am going (or maybe i should say, "thank you")
  ('cause i wouldn't have been me, haha)
  
  [outro: skylar grey & eminem]
  so you better, you better run (yeah)
  you better, you better run (so i'ma let it go now, rest in peace)
  you better, you better run (cocksucker, haha)
  you better, you better run (see you in hell)
• skylar grey ile olan parçalarını ayrı seviyorum. eminem's the g.o.a.t.
  
  i'm leaving heaven...
• eminem'in babasına olan öfkesini anlattığı music to be murdered by albümünün en hoş şarkısı
• eminem'in music to be murdered by albümünde yer alan efsanevi parçası. aynı anda bu kadar güzel skyler gray nakaratları ve bu kadar korkunç eminem şiirselliği parçanın etkisini daha bir artırıyor. parçanın son kısmındaki eminem'in babasına olan tiradı başka bir noktaya taşımaktadır.
  
  --- spoiler ---
  
  so you better, you better run (yeah)
  you better, you better run (so i'ma let it go now, rest in peace)
  you better, you better run (c**ksucker, haha)
  you better, you better run (see you in hell)
  
  --- spoiler ---
  
  ne yazık ki türkçe karşılık bulamıyorum hakkındaki hislerimle ilgili, o yüzden tamamen ingiliççe olan esas tanımımı yapmak istiyorum: "the most fucked up, and at the same time, beautiful song i've listened so far."